Welcome to The Inside Out. My name is Luke Renner and I’m the guy behind this.
"So what is this?” you ask.
For about 38 years I was pretty twisted up on the inside—damaged goods—the product of attachment disorder and childhood trauma, all of which came to a head in 2010, when I developed a pretty nasty case of PTSD after spending some time roaming the streets of Port-Au-Prince, Haiti, in the immediate days and weeks following the earthquake of January 12.
Eventually—and there's a TREMENDOUS amount of time and pain and struggle that lives between that "eventually" and what comes next—I was saved by a handful of insufferably patient people.
It was under their gracious (and unwanted) persistence that I began to consciously "awaken" to the predicament that I was in. For the better part of thirty-five years I had been living in an alternate universe.
Mine was a detached life, filled with rage, impulsivity, paranoia, isolation, distrust, fragmentation, self-harm, shallow relationships, addiction, crippling debt, and more. My "normal" was my nightmare, a nightmare from which I was only beginning to awaken.
When faced with the inescapable truth of who and what I was, I decided to work my way toward wellness, the only survivable direction left to go. This blog is my way of documenting that journey—my way of getting the inside out.
As I work through my own healing, I invite your friendship and companionship for the journey. Frankly, we are all in need of a community of supportive souls (I suspect you may need that as well). So please read along and listen. Please contribute. And please begin (or continue) your own journey toward wellness.
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